Time has no meaning anymore.  Neither do the pleasures of the body.  I don’t remember either of them, not in a meaningful way; only that they existed once.

Like a beautiful dream and perfect health, they fade so quickly in the dark light of their counter part.

When I can pull my mind from my own screams and heartbreak, to search for a joyful memory;  Only the One comes crashing through me.

I said, “Lord! Lord!” And, He said, “I never knew you; Depart from me you worker of lawlessness!”

I used to be able to follow those indescribable words with others He once spoke to me, and feel their Love again.

They are all gone now.  “Jesus Wept.”  The first verse I memorized, is the last one I forget.

I am utterly alone, with my screams, and His final refrain.  Why did it take so long to cry, “Have mercy on me, a worthless sinner!”

 

 

 

 

Mutemandeafcat